st_theresa

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Sunday, April 30, 2006

100 Things About Me

  1. I don’t drink milk
  2. I do like yogurt
  3. I have AADHD
  4. I like classic rock
  5. I am the 3rd of 4 children
  6. I have no pets
  7. I had a dog that died when she was 12
  8. I had a cat that lived to be 18
  9. I am Christian
  10. I love to drink coffee
  11. I get a headache if I don’t drink coffee
  12. I do not smoke
  13. I do have a glass or 2 of wine many days
  14. I am often abrupt with people (only when they don’t get it)
  15. I was born in May
  16. My mom and dad are both 82
  17. I met my first love at 15
  18. He died a few years ago, we were still friends
  19. I have been married for 28 years
  20. My husband has serious lung problems
  21. I am angry with him for being sick
  22. I find it hard to make close friends
  23. One of my closest friends died last month
  24. I miss her
  25. My desk at work is messy
  26. I wear size 7 shoes
  27. I have a bunion
  28. The beach is my favorite vacation spot
  29. I am a healthcare worker
  30. I have brown eyes
  31. I can water-ski, although have not been in a few years
  32. I am very impatient
  33. I do not eat beef or pork
  34. I like seafood
  35. I like to watch crime shows (CSI, Forensic files, Cold Case)
  36. I went to catholic grade school
  37. I went to public high school
  38. I was a real problem child back then
  39. I went to college later than some
  40. My 1st car was an ugly Falcon
  41. I moved south in 1977
  42. I often feel guilty for things from the past
  43. My 1st concert was Moody Blues
  44. I have known a few people that committed suicide
  45. I have a scar on my right knee
  46. I am not musically inclined at all
  47. I like spicy food
  48. I believe people are brought into our lives for a reason.
  49. I am easily bored
  50. I can be self centered
  51. I love to do things for others
  52. I procrastinate often
  53. I don’t think that you can be against capital punishment & support abortion
  54. I think a person who professes #53 is hypocritical
  55. I need very little sleep
  56. I am Irish (fathers' half)
  57. I am Italian (mothers' half)
  58. I was born in NY (both halves)
  59. I do not mind being alone
  60. I believe prayer is powerful
  61. I mowed the grass once
  62. My cousin married my best friends ex-husband
  63. I had an affair with my old boyfriend before I married
  64. I have been faithful to my husband
  65. I do not really like to cook
  66. I cook sometimes
  67. I am not crazy about cleaning
  68. I have a house keeper who comes every 2 weeks
  69. I have never been to Europe
  70. I would love to go to Europe
  71. I like to read spiritual things
  72. I am currently reading “Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil”
  73. I am 5 feet 3 inches tall
  74. I used to run
  75. I plan to start running again, tomorrow
  76. I finish what I start
  77. I am not impressed by fancy cars and houses
  78. I drive a BMW
  79. I am not a Republican
  80. I am not a Democrat
  81. I am my own person and like to make up my own mind
  82. My favorite Psalm is 116
  83. I like grapefruit juice
  84. I remember when JFK, RFK, & MLK were shot
  85. I have had problems getting along with my mother
  86. I was a tomboy as a kid
  87. I was a lonely child
  88. I do not watch reality TV
  89. Getting hard to focus…did I mention I have AADHD??
  90. Did I mentioned how easily bored I get?
  91. I sometimes log onto my neighbors wireless
  92. I like my job, most days
  93. There is one coworker who is really getting to me
  94. I have a friend who is bipolar
  95. I pop bubble wrap
  96. I ran away as teenager
  97. I sometimes want to runaway today
  98. Forgot to mention about my inability to focus
  99. I think my AADHD is kicking in
  100. I am glad I finally finished this


Wednesday, April 26, 2006

When we lost you, I was lost, I lost my cool.
I do remember all the good times we shared,
I wish we could have shared one more,
Remember the old house, remember the dead cow (ha ha)
and the meter man, Elton John, the monastery,
Remember my first time skiing, the gum ball machine,
We had a bond with gramma, we loved her so.
Forgive me for all the wild thoughts I have had,
My shock over you leaving caused disbelief,
It could not happen, I had to blame someone.
Now I know it was His plan, He called you home,
Doesn't make it easier, still sucks,
But I must accept His plan.
Hey, when we see each other again,
Let's climb the stone pile one more time.
Miss you so.....

Saturday, April 22, 2006

The stages

I am going through stages. First it was disbelief or denial. How could this happen? Then it was anger. I think that someone hurt her intentionally. I am so angry that this happened. Now it is sadness. I am so sad to lose a friend that I cared so much for. I cry & then I think about the happy times. No one can take them away. They will always be there. They make me smile.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Reality

What is the reality of all this. God...I feel guilty. Guilty because I secretly think he did this to her. Lord, I hope I am wrong. But, it makes no sense. Why was his car running like that in the garage? Could that be an accident? Yes...maybe but I have such a hard time believing it. My dear friend...please do not be angry with me. I know you loved him but how could this happen? Lord forgive me for these thoughts, something is wrong. It make no sense.
Lord help us.

Friday, April 14, 2006

Miss my friend

I lost a close friend a few weeks ago. I grieve for her. I am consoled in the fact that she had strong faith and is certainly in a beautiful place. I can not stop my thoughts that she was too young. I am older, she was not suppose to leave first. Her children need her. Too young…too soon. I will miss her so. I will always think about her when I hear Elton John.
My thoughts and prayers.