Reality

What is the reality of all this. God...I feel guilty. Guilty because I secretly think he did this to her. Lord, I hope I am wrong. But, it makes no sense. Why was his car running like that in the garage? Could that be an accident? Yes...maybe but I have such a hard time believing it. My dear friend...please do not be angry with me. I know you loved him but how could this happen? Lord forgive me for these thoughts, something is wrong. It make no sense.
Lord help us.