Yes Dear Lord, I have been away. I did not want to leave. I ask your help in returning. Adversity comes for a reason. I trust your will. Your plan is in the works. Fear and anxiety are lifted. You have brought me from darkness. Thank you for your gift of forgiveness.

I want to live your way. I struggle sometimes, but you are always there for me. I thank you for your persistence. I continue to strive to do your will. You are with me forever. Thank you.

Ramblings of a mad women :)

If you cant say something NICE, then SHUT UP!
Wish they would quit watching me,
They are out to get me,
I’m not paranoid, I swear,
I am just reading the book,
I admit I am a paranoid android,
I will be hiding in an undisclosed location (with Mr. Cheney)
Humm…build a wall, maybe that is the answer,
What about …”tear down” THAT wall?
"Go North, young man,"
Ask a young person what they think,
Ask an elderly person what they think,
I am not in cognito, I am in Georgia,
It's all a diabolical brainwashing plot,
I am flying off the beatin path again,
So Sorry!

It takes time

No outward signs,
Act normal,
What's it all mean,
The tears,
The moods,
The ups and downs,
All around,
It's getting to me,
Then...
Positive thoughts,
Purpose driven,
Have faith,
It's all fine!

Caner Run

Forgot to mention that I did a 5K on Sat. It was a Komen caner run. A great event for a great cause.

Sometimes you don’t feel like writing

Don’t feel like writing these days.
Don’t feel much of anything in this maze.
Why is that, you ask?
I cannot complete the task.

Don’t really know.
The words just don’t flow.
I know it usually makes me feel better.
Just to even write a letter.

I do get up early and listen to the birds
But, I can’t even scribble a few lousy words.
That is exactly why I must keep going
I must write until the words start flowing.

So, if this does not make sense,
It is probably because I am too tense.
The blank page I cannot face,
I will continue to search for my place.

FOUND IT!!

I was looking in all the wrong places. I was focusing within. (Thanks E.A. for reminding me!) Never going to find it that way! Prayer helped me remember the real focus. The focus is on Him. Have to always remember this!! Regaining my focus is great. Ah yes....helps me remember the reason for it all. The meaning of life only comes with with a relationship with Him. God centered ....not self-centered. So, glad He is forgiving and loving.

Lost my focus

Guess I do not feel much like writing these days. Lost my focus. Looked for it everywhere. It's not under the bed. Not in the closet. Where is it? Damn it. I hate losing things. Lost my keys the other day. Took me 2 days to find them. They were in the closet. Where is my focus? Distractions...Distractions. Got to go due to interruptions. What was I saying?? Can not focus today.

Life's priorities

Every now and then I must remind myself of the priorities in my life. My priorities are divided into three areas. There is a commitment to myself, to my family and to my job. Of course my faith is intertwined in each of these areas. It so very easy to get those commitments out of balance? What is balance, you ask? The answer is that it depends.

How do I know when I am in or out of balance? Not so easy to detemine because my priorities are interrelated. Work provides personal self satisfaction of doing something meaningful with my life. I work in the healthcare industry and can truly make a difference in the lives of others. Taking care of myself is connected with my family and with my work because I must be fit both physically and mentally to be successful in my job and to be an important part of my family. Without a stable family life my work will suffer and the commitment to myself will suffer. Yes....One has an impact on the other two. When one area is being stressed the other two will suffer.

I believe that a sign of being out of balance in priorities is the never ending search for happiness from outside factors. Overindulgence in anything will certainly lead to problems. You can eat too much, drink too much, spend too much, talk too much, go to church too much. Yes, it is true that you can go to church too much! I know of individuals that neglect their family due to the activities they are involved in at church.

So....to determine if your life is in balance you simply need to look at your indulgences and evaluate their impact on your priorities. Bring your indulgences back into line and life priorities will come back in line. Prayer is oh so helpful when it comes to dealing with overindulgence, I will not go into my overindulgences here.